I got to watch HP7 with little brother last night. Every time I try and quantify or categorize my relationship with Jordan I feel at a loss. It's easy to say he's my best friend. It's easy to say that I can tell him anything and he won't judge me or love me any less. The hardest part about our relationship is the fact that we can't be together more often. Please don't misunderstand me in this. This is not a complaint. Jordan is with his wife and child and they are the priority for him. In the same situation I am committed to my immediate family as well. This is not a source of sorrow but of pride. I am proud of him for the man he is and the accountability he provides as well.
The issue I have has to do with the fact that I want what I know isn't best for us. I want to drive down to his house and hang out in his basement for hours playing COD and just talking. I want him to drive to my house so we can have a cigar and hang out. I am constantly finding things for us to get together and do, which isn't hard because anything would be wicked awesome just hanging out. All of these things flash through my mind and I realize that all of those childhood memories that I wish I could recapture are what makes our current relationship great. I could not ask for a more beautiful and complimentary partner for my brother that Ali nor a cuter niece that my SLN Jadie.
On the same level I couldn't imagine life without my Nae. So all of these thoughts lead in one direction...God is sooo good and He is waaay smarter than me :)
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Jared.. Every time you say something like this, Jordan gets this cute, sad look on his face. He hates reciprocating anything with feelings involved, but I know that he loved this post (I'm not sure if he has read it yet, but I'll show him when he gets home tonight). I hope you know how great of a brother you are for him. The best! And you've always taken such good care of him. I can only hope that Jadie and Eiley have half the connection that you and Jord have. I'm so thankful for the influence you have had and still do have on his life. After our kinda crazy Sunday, I was so glad to read your text inviting you up to your house. I love spending time with you and Nae and always feel like I can get such good advice and love from you guys. You are the BEST!!
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